28 jan 2012

today i went for yet another run in a long litany of the same. why? why do i run? why do i run often? what do i want from running? what does running want from me?

why do i believe running wants something of me?

i wouldn't expect you to understand... to understand how running isn't merely an activity, how running isn't something that i go do, how running is someonething i go be with.

yeah, like i said, i wouldn't expect you to understand.

but, anyway, she was really good company today. oh sure, i know she's a tease, but i think she might love me... she might, you know, be ready to settle down, have a relationship. maybe.